Here is an encouraging video depicting what reading God's Word can do in
a village.
As part of my job I get the privilege of approving, consulting and
sharing videos that my team do to help get the stories out.
This one was done by the newest member of our team, and I found
encouragement in the story. It is helpful as someone who does support
work, to be reminded why they are supporting Bible translation.
Gimpel and Gumby to Papua New Guinea. That was our handles when we were younger, but it became 'going to png' We lived there for over 12 years and are back in the U.S. now adapting to live and viewing life through a much different lens. I rarely update my blog because I tend to be too long winded and I frankly don't know who wants to read this stuff anyway. I'm not sure if my thoughts help the world, but I'm putting it out there just in case it does.
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6/28/2016
6/14/2016
Graduation is over
So my daughter is now a senior in high school. My son a 10th grader.
As is our way of life, in 1 year's time from now, my daughter will be
leaving home.
Part of our culture here is that seniors have to leave soon after they
graduate for visa reasons. So, you can imagine in a single month's time
(4 Saturdays)
-a banquet/prom
-awards ceremony
-a graduation
-a graduation party/reception
-all the 'lasts' ... saying goodbyes, etc.
-moving out for 6 months to a year as you go on furlough (or shorter)
-a child moving out of the house.
They say stress levels on normal people range up to 12 on some scale of
stress that someone smarter than me figured out. 12 being complete
meltdown/burnout. A survey done last year said that missionaries live
at a constant 13 which they have become accustomed to. Thus feeling
stress at peaks to 16. This June was 15. Next June will be 18.
We've one year left with our daughter to equip her for the real world.
1 very short year. To teach her everything left that we can. Cram it
all in.
That isn't a whole lot of time.
We sure could use some prayer. I have this feeling that the next year is
going to pass by like a blink.
THIS year we were incredibly busy, next year will be insane.
As a father, I don't even like thinking about this, but it is time.
As is our way of life, in 1 year's time from now, my daughter will be
leaving home.
Part of our culture here is that seniors have to leave soon after they
graduate for visa reasons. So, you can imagine in a single month's time
(4 Saturdays)
-a banquet/prom
-awards ceremony
-a graduation
-a graduation party/reception
-all the 'lasts' ... saying goodbyes, etc.
-moving out for 6 months to a year as you go on furlough (or shorter)
-a child moving out of the house.
They say stress levels on normal people range up to 12 on some scale of
stress that someone smarter than me figured out. 12 being complete
meltdown/burnout. A survey done last year said that missionaries live
at a constant 13 which they have become accustomed to. Thus feeling
stress at peaks to 16. This June was 15. Next June will be 18.
We've one year left with our daughter to equip her for the real world.
1 very short year. To teach her everything left that we can. Cram it
all in.
That isn't a whole lot of time.
We sure could use some prayer. I have this feeling that the next year is
going to pass by like a blink.
THIS year we were incredibly busy, next year will be insane.
As a father, I don't even like thinking about this, but it is time.
6/08/2016
Movin' On Up
Exams are over, by Weds we'll have a 10th grader and a high school
senior in the family!
Today as I was leaving for work, my daughter the only one left behind I
began to shout out to her,
"Bye, don't do anything I wouldn't do." but then I thought 'wait, that's
WAY too permissive. I'm a 42 year old man, there are plenty of things I
would do that I don't want my 16 yr old daughter doing.
So I modified it to
"Do the things I would do." but then I thought 'wait, that's the same
thing!"
so I changed it to
"Don't do some of the things I would do." and then I realized that
sounded odd. Plus I breath and walk, and talk, and I would want her to
do those things, so.... again it changed to
"Do some of the things I wouldn't do and some of the things I would do
but..." that didn't work so again I changed it.
and just started to say "Do the things YOU would do, I trust you." at
which point the salutation was completely pointless. I mean, do I really
need to tell someone to do the things they would do?
What my daughter eventually heard (or didn't hear as she was in a
different room) was her dad walking out the door shouting
"Duh, but.. suh.. doo.. love..bye."
Adjusting to having a senior in the house is gonna be entertaining.
senior in the family!
Today as I was leaving for work, my daughter the only one left behind I
began to shout out to her,
"Bye, don't do anything I wouldn't do." but then I thought 'wait, that's
WAY too permissive. I'm a 42 year old man, there are plenty of things I
would do that I don't want my 16 yr old daughter doing.
So I modified it to
"Do the things I would do." but then I thought 'wait, that's the same
thing!"
so I changed it to
"Don't do some of the things I would do." and then I realized that
sounded odd. Plus I breath and walk, and talk, and I would want her to
do those things, so.... again it changed to
"Do some of the things I wouldn't do and some of the things I would do
but..." that didn't work so again I changed it.
and just started to say "Do the things YOU would do, I trust you." at
which point the salutation was completely pointless. I mean, do I really
need to tell someone to do the things they would do?
What my daughter eventually heard (or didn't hear as she was in a
different room) was her dad walking out the door shouting
"Duh, but.. suh.. doo.. love..bye."
Adjusting to having a senior in the house is gonna be entertaining.
5/30/2016
The 'Huh' Moment
I like coining terms. I'm trying to invent a term for the following
idea, perhaps you can help me.
It is that moment AFTER you've finished a huge undertaking (like
planning a wedding or some other huge long-term project) where you slump
down in your chair, and say 'Well, We did it! It's Over' and you relax
and celebrate... not that moment... the moment AFTER... when you
realize 'Huh, life goes on. There's millions of people all around me who
have no idea what we just accomplished and wouldn't care even if they
knew. Interesting.'
And then you decide to just keep on going with life.
It is that moment when you realize there will be no parade for your
accomplishment, maybe a quick pat on the back, but otherwise, the world
is not going to hoist a statue in your honor, nor will hundreds speak
your hallowed name in reverence.
Life goes on. You did something good, you served someone well, and
now... life continues. No pomp.. no circumstance. It's all over. Onto
the next thing.
THAT moment.
It isn't sad moment. It's a pause, a realization. All the people moving
around out there, have their own big moments, their own plans to undertake.
And in that moment you have a choice. That 'Huh' moment. You can
choose to wish the world did pay you homage and in some way said
'THANKS' to you. Or, you can choose to let having helped someone,
having served someone be its own reward, and then be happy and move on.
That 'huh' moment is the moment when you decide if you're going to be a
humble servant, or a complaining servant.
Banquet is over.. Huh.
Cleanup is done.. Huh.
Graduation is next.. Huh.
My daughter will be a senior in a few days.. Huh.
In 3 months my daughter will be 17... Huh.
Life is a series of moments, a series of attitude adjustments. This
week has been one of those weeks where exhaustion attacks your attitude
and you have to fight to remain a cheerful servant. I think my wife and
I pulled it off, but only because we love where we are and what we do.
idea, perhaps you can help me.
It is that moment AFTER you've finished a huge undertaking (like
planning a wedding or some other huge long-term project) where you slump
down in your chair, and say 'Well, We did it! It's Over' and you relax
and celebrate... not that moment... the moment AFTER... when you
realize 'Huh, life goes on. There's millions of people all around me who
have no idea what we just accomplished and wouldn't care even if they
knew. Interesting.'
And then you decide to just keep on going with life.
It is that moment when you realize there will be no parade for your
accomplishment, maybe a quick pat on the back, but otherwise, the world
is not going to hoist a statue in your honor, nor will hundreds speak
your hallowed name in reverence.
Life goes on. You did something good, you served someone well, and
now... life continues. No pomp.. no circumstance. It's all over. Onto
the next thing.
THAT moment.
It isn't sad moment. It's a pause, a realization. All the people moving
around out there, have their own big moments, their own plans to undertake.
And in that moment you have a choice. That 'Huh' moment. You can
choose to wish the world did pay you homage and in some way said
'THANKS' to you. Or, you can choose to let having helped someone,
having served someone be its own reward, and then be happy and move on.
That 'huh' moment is the moment when you decide if you're going to be a
humble servant, or a complaining servant.
Banquet is over.. Huh.
Cleanup is done.. Huh.
Graduation is next.. Huh.
My daughter will be a senior in a few days.. Huh.
In 3 months my daughter will be 17... Huh.
Life is a series of moments, a series of attitude adjustments. This
week has been one of those weeks where exhaustion attacks your attitude
and you have to fight to remain a cheerful servant. I think my wife and
I pulled it off, but only because we love where we are and what we do.
5/27/2016
God Can Use Weird
Years ago, I thought it might be fun to figure out if I could build a
karaoke machine.
I started with an old mac.
I installed Kjams software on it.
I plugged in a mic.
Boom, Karaoke machine.
No one ever used it. But I knew how to make it.
Years later, I considered getting rid of that old laptop, but I kept it
around because.... you never know.
A few minutes ago, someone said "Our karaoke machine is broken and we
have a youth event tomorrow... does anyone have a karaoke machine?"
I said 'Um, I may have sort of one... that might work... if it still
boots.' I ran home, dusted it off, booted it... boom instant karaoke.
Now tell me ... is it circumstance that I had the yen one Saturday 7
years ago, to build a karaoke machine that never got used, and then
decided NOT to get rid of it?
Or is that providence?
I have found over the years that there is a time and a place for almost
every kind of odd little interest I have, while serving here. Somehow,
that little know-how or talent seems to find a place where I can help
someone.
I don't believe in luck.
karaoke machine.
I started with an old mac.
I installed Kjams software on it.
I plugged in a mic.
Boom, Karaoke machine.
No one ever used it. But I knew how to make it.
Years later, I considered getting rid of that old laptop, but I kept it
around because.... you never know.
A few minutes ago, someone said "Our karaoke machine is broken and we
have a youth event tomorrow... does anyone have a karaoke machine?"
I said 'Um, I may have sort of one... that might work... if it still
boots.' I ran home, dusted it off, booted it... boom instant karaoke.
Now tell me ... is it circumstance that I had the yen one Saturday 7
years ago, to build a karaoke machine that never got used, and then
decided NOT to get rid of it?
Or is that providence?
I have found over the years that there is a time and a place for almost
every kind of odd little interest I have, while serving here. Somehow,
that little know-how or talent seems to find a place where I can help
someone.
I don't believe in luck.
5/24/2016
For Our Daughter
This is our daughter, helping lead Sunday morning worship. She's in the youth band, in the choir, in the accappela singing group, and an 11th grader at the high school.
This week we have for the 11th and 12th graders a tradition here, called Banquet. You'd be familiar with the concept of prom or banquet depending on where you live/go to school. Only we don't have fancy restaurants to go to. So, the parents of these youths and other caring community members plan for months to make it a special time. Those plans come to culmination in a one week period of repurposing old building materials and turning the gym into something new and exciting for the kids. A place they visit very regularly, their teen center, is transformed into something else.
The concept isn't foreign, other schools do it. We do it a slight bit differently in that we have relatively no budget for the event.
My wife and I have been knee deep in this since the beginning (along with many others) and it is the kind of hard work that is also very enjoyable because the community is pulling together to create a blessing for our outgoing seniors and incoming seniors.
For some it is also a catharsis, a period of knowing this is the last big thing you'll be able to do for your kid before they move away.
Some of you may remember 'Carol Sing'. It is a lot like that (on a smaller scale).
I won't avoid the truth, there are some people who feel that missionaries shouldn't spend their time doing this type of thing. We've learned a LOT about transitions and the role traditions play in transitioning over the years.
In June, dozens of TCK (third culture kids, formerly called Missionary Kids) are going to exit their 'home' and go to their sending country and try to establish themselves in this foreign environment, as fledgling adults. It is a difficult time for them. They could use your prayers.
But before they go, we're gonna have one last big fling, and it's called Banquet, and it happens in 2 days.
And then, all the adults are going to pass out and sleep for the weekend.
4/17/2016
Solitude
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I love swimming in the ocean. I float there, looking down through my goggles, and see all the fish. They don't know my name, maybe they know me as "big floaty white thing", but they otherwise pay me no mind.
I like the solitude of swimming in the ocean. I like that it brings my mind to how awesome God is. Look at all He's created! It keeps me from all distractions, it's fun, it's relaxing, and if I allow myself to go there, it is communing with God. To me, my time in the ocean is some of the best worship times. I don't mean singing (how would that sound?.."Our gurgle is an Awesome gurgle"). But just thinking about how incredibly wonderful and awe-inspiring God is.
So there I was, big-floaty-white-thing, all alone in the ocean, just us fish, thinking 'being alone is GREAT! I love this anonymity, this solitude!'. Suddenly, from right behind me I hear 'HELLO!!!" and I turn to see afamily of Papua New Guineans rowing a canoe. Mom, dad, and two kids, all perfect strangers to me. All waving and smiling and laughing and big-floaty-white-man.
I waved back.
In PNG I'm always being watched, rarely alone, never anonymous. I'm always representing my gender, my race, my country, my organization or the world where giants live (go Giants! "See that's funny Hildy because he's big and he's a Giants baseball fan, try to keep up.").
But solitude, (taking a break from all your worries sure would help alot!) communing with God, getting to that quiet place where you can say you concentrated on hearing what God is telling you, THAT IS VERY IMPORTANT.
For some it takes work. For most it recharges our batteries. But we all need it. We need the tune up time with God. We can't very well serve others, or even be in community without first getting things straight with God, one on one.
Here comes the but! But we shouldn't stay there either. We need to surface, look around, and continue swimming forward toward where God pointed us.
As I was under that water enjoying that no one knew me, or possibly even saw me, and the canoe came by shouting 'hello.' I had one very clear thought.
"Okay Chad, you've had your spiritual retreat weekend, you know what I've been telling you to do. Now, it's time to get to work again, its time to go back among people, loving them, serving them, ministering to them."
4/11/2016
Showing love
As Americans we are trained to be independent. I still try to be as
independent as I can be. But there is much to be said about being in a
place of helplessness. About being dependent on someone. About knowing
how to accept help graciously, and understanding how to sense when
others need help, and provide help yourself.
Since becoming an overseas volunteer (bwa hahaha, you thought I'd say
missionary?), I have been placed in the very uncomfortable and yet
entirely awesome position of being dependent on others.
Not just for financial support, but for other things as well. Dependent
on God, daily is a glorious position to be in. Seeing Him come through
and be faithful is wonderful.
It is an entirely different kind of wonderful to see humans, friends,
even strangers, come through and be helpful.
I mean we sort of come to expect it of God, we know He loves us. We are
thankful for Him, and His love, which never ends and never tires. But
human love does get tired. And so when we are shown love from one
another, it tends to reach us in a different part of our heart. I think
that is why Christ tells us to love one another. It seems to reach us
in ways nothing else does.
Yesterday my parents needed help with their computer and though I tried
remotely to fix it, I was unable to. A friend went way above and beyond
and assisted my parents by going to their house, spending multiple hours
with them, fixing their issues, and then telling them about his family.
He didn't make a big deal of it, he didn't even say a whole lot about
it. He just did it.
I can not communicate to you how much this touched me.
There have been many times like this over the last 9 years. Times when,
had I not been in a dependent/helpless position, I would not have
experienced the awesome love of others towards us.
Having been fiercely independent, even reputedly so, for many years, I
can tell you, though it takes adjustment and is scary at times, no
feeling of personal victory comes anywhere close to the incredible
feeling when someone reaches out to you in love, and you're able to
accept the help.
I can't even really explain it.
It's not begging, it's not pity, it is becoming close to one another in
a way that we are rarely accustomed to. It is Christ bringing people
together. And it fuels us, and enables us to show love to the people
that we are ABLE to show love to. It sort of amplifies itself, and is
contagious.
God knew what He was talking about.
independent as I can be. But there is much to be said about being in a
place of helplessness. About being dependent on someone. About knowing
how to accept help graciously, and understanding how to sense when
others need help, and provide help yourself.
Since becoming an overseas volunteer (bwa hahaha, you thought I'd say
missionary?), I have been placed in the very uncomfortable and yet
entirely awesome position of being dependent on others.
Not just for financial support, but for other things as well. Dependent
on God, daily is a glorious position to be in. Seeing Him come through
and be faithful is wonderful.
It is an entirely different kind of wonderful to see humans, friends,
even strangers, come through and be helpful.
I mean we sort of come to expect it of God, we know He loves us. We are
thankful for Him, and His love, which never ends and never tires. But
human love does get tired. And so when we are shown love from one
another, it tends to reach us in a different part of our heart. I think
that is why Christ tells us to love one another. It seems to reach us
in ways nothing else does.
Yesterday my parents needed help with their computer and though I tried
remotely to fix it, I was unable to. A friend went way above and beyond
and assisted my parents by going to their house, spending multiple hours
with them, fixing their issues, and then telling them about his family.
He didn't make a big deal of it, he didn't even say a whole lot about
it. He just did it.
I can not communicate to you how much this touched me.
There have been many times like this over the last 9 years. Times when,
had I not been in a dependent/helpless position, I would not have
experienced the awesome love of others towards us.
Having been fiercely independent, even reputedly so, for many years, I
can tell you, though it takes adjustment and is scary at times, no
feeling of personal victory comes anywhere close to the incredible
feeling when someone reaches out to you in love, and you're able to
accept the help.
I can't even really explain it.
It's not begging, it's not pity, it is becoming close to one another in
a way that we are rarely accustomed to. It is Christ bringing people
together. And it fuels us, and enables us to show love to the people
that we are ABLE to show love to. It sort of amplifies itself, and is
contagious.
God knew what He was talking about.
Showing love
As Americans we are trained to be independent. I still try to be as
independent as I can be. But there is much to be said about being in a
place of helplessness. About being dependent on someone. About knowing
how to accept help graciously, and understanding how to sense when
others need help, and provide help yourself.
Since becoming an overseas volunteer (bwa hahaha, you thought I'd say
missionary?), I have been placed in the very uncomfortable and yet
entirely awesome position of being dependent on others.
Not just for financial support, but for other things as well. Dependent
on God, daily is a glorious position to be in. Seeing Him come through
and be faithful is wonderful.
It is an entirely different kind of wonderful to see humans, friends,
even strangers, come through and be helpful.
I mean we sort of come to expect it of God, we know He loves us. We are
thankful for Him, and His love, which never ends and never tires. But
human love does get tired. And so when we are shown love from one
another, it tends to reach us in a different part of our heart. I think
that is why Christ tells us to love one another. It seems to reach us
in ways nothing else does.
Yesterday my parents needed help with their computer and though I tried
remotely to fix it, I was unable to. A friend went way above and beyond
and assisted my parents by going to their house, spending multiple hours
with them, fixing their issues, and then telling them about his family.
He didn't make a big deal of it, he didn't even say a whole lot about
it. He just did it.
I can not communicate to you how much this touched me.
There have been many times like this over the last 9 years. Times when,
had I not been in a dependent/helpless position, I would not have
experienced the awesome love of others towards us.
Having been fiercely independent, even reputedly so, for many years, I
can tell you, though it takes adjustment and is scary at times, no
feeling of personal victory comes anywhere close to the incredible
feeling when someone reaches out to you in love, and you're able to
accept the help.
I can't even really explain it.
It's not begging, it's not pity, it is becoming close to one another in
a way that we are rarely accustomed to. It is Christ bringing people
together.
independent as I can be. But there is much to be said about being in a
place of helplessness. About being dependent on someone. About knowing
how to accept help graciously, and understanding how to sense when
others need help, and provide help yourself.
Since becoming an overseas volunteer (bwa hahaha, you thought I'd say
missionary?), I have been placed in the very uncomfortable and yet
entirely awesome position of being dependent on others.
Not just for financial support, but for other things as well. Dependent
on God, daily is a glorious position to be in. Seeing Him come through
and be faithful is wonderful.
It is an entirely different kind of wonderful to see humans, friends,
even strangers, come through and be helpful.
I mean we sort of come to expect it of God, we know He loves us. We are
thankful for Him, and His love, which never ends and never tires. But
human love does get tired. And so when we are shown love from one
another, it tends to reach us in a different part of our heart. I think
that is why Christ tells us to love one another. It seems to reach us
in ways nothing else does.
Yesterday my parents needed help with their computer and though I tried
remotely to fix it, I was unable to. A friend went way above and beyond
and assisted my parents by going to their house, spending multiple hours
with them, fixing their issues, and then telling them about his family.
He didn't make a big deal of it, he didn't even say a whole lot about
it. He just did it.
I can not communicate to you how much this touched me.
There have been many times like this over the last 9 years. Times when,
had I not been in a dependent/helpless position, I would not have
experienced the awesome love of others towards us.
Having been fiercely independent, even reputedly so, for many years, I
can tell you, though it takes adjustment and is scary at times, no
feeling of personal victory comes anywhere close to the incredible
feeling when someone reaches out to you in love, and you're able to
accept the help.
I can't even really explain it.
It's not begging, it's not pity, it is becoming close to one another in
a way that we are rarely accustomed to. It is Christ bringing people
together.
3/26/2016
3/25/2016
Opulence
We don't use clothes dryers here. As often as it rains, the sun shines
hot and often. We hang our clothes out on a line. I'm sure you've
heard already about some ways this affects our culture. For example,
when it starts to rain, everyone running like mad to the line to get the
clothes off. Or having to wait for the sun to come out to hang your wet
clothes, etc.
One thing that happens to clothes on a line is that they fade. You can
sometimes see this clearly if you look inside the pocket of a shirt, or
on the underside.
Another thing that happens to nice, soft, cuddly towels, is that without
fabric softener or tumble drying, they stop being so soft and cuddly.
I used the towel in this picture to dry off, and it as I was doing so I
had this thought "I've somehow become accustomed enough to this
sandpaper like texture, that when I feel a new towel, I notice it very
quickly."
(We got a few towels on furlough, which are the 'good towels', but it
wasn't my turn to use one.
I put it on the rack, threadbare, very stiff and rough to the touch, and
I looked at the tag at the bottom and hand to laugh at the irony.
"Opulence" yeah, maybe one day, a long time ago.
hot and often. We hang our clothes out on a line. I'm sure you've
heard already about some ways this affects our culture. For example,
when it starts to rain, everyone running like mad to the line to get the
clothes off. Or having to wait for the sun to come out to hang your wet
clothes, etc.
One thing that happens to clothes on a line is that they fade. You can
sometimes see this clearly if you look inside the pocket of a shirt, or
on the underside.
Another thing that happens to nice, soft, cuddly towels, is that without
fabric softener or tumble drying, they stop being so soft and cuddly.
I used the towel in this picture to dry off, and it as I was doing so I
had this thought "I've somehow become accustomed enough to this
sandpaper like texture, that when I feel a new towel, I notice it very
quickly."
(We got a few towels on furlough, which are the 'good towels', but it
wasn't my turn to use one.
I put it on the rack, threadbare, very stiff and rough to the touch, and
I looked at the tag at the bottom and hand to laugh at the irony.
"Opulence" yeah, maybe one day, a long time ago.
3/17/2016
Lunch meet
Today I was sitting alone reading my book in a rare escape from the
world moment. I was eating lunch alone at our local store when I heard a
dirt bike pull up that had a familiar sound to it. I looked up, and
saw a friend of mine. In my line of sight however I saw a young
crippled Papua New Guinean man who also had a severe mental handicap.
I had seen this young man around before, limping to and from wherever it is he goes. Drooling on himself along the way, and sort of moaning out 'hello' to people in his way.
I had always admired the fact that this guy has kept himself alive in this culture, in this climate. He just keeps waking up each day and getting dressed, and walking to wherever he goes.
I found myself wondering at that moment 'how I could help this guy?' I
I wondered if maybe offering him a ride to someplace might help as he
limps along very slowly. But I didn't know if he would be able to tell
me, as his language ability is so impaired.
Something distracted me and I lost the train of thought and moved on.
Not long after my lunch was over and I decided to head back to work,
when a fleeting thought caught my attention 'hey, go into the store, and
hey, go into the store the back way.'
It was an odd thought, and I kinda was breaking the rules to do it. But
I used the excuse of using the bathroom along the way to make it feel
less like breaking any rules.
I didn't get too far into the store before feeling a tug on my jacket.
It was this young man of whom I was speaking earlier. He moaned out to
me something unintelligible and then pointed to some meat in the fridge.
It was an 8 kina (2 dollars) pack of lunch meat. He looked at me and
got out 'You buy for me'.
Oddly at this moment I can't recall if it was Tok Pisin or English.
I instantly said 'Yes.' I saw the coins in his hand, and assumed he
wanted help getting to the register, carrying it, etc. So I said 'Do
you have the 8 kina?'
He shook his head and replied 'You pay!'. As he did so more drool
escaped his lips and his eyes wandered.
I know that begging in our store is not permitted as it could cause a
big problem. So again I was faced with 'If I do this, how many rules am
I breaking?'
I decided to ask for cultural assistance. You really don't want to
encourage begging because you don't want to encourage a culture of
depending on missionaries for income. But I didn't feel this was
exactly that situation. I mean we've had people beg us for money
before, but never meat. And never like this. Mostly they just grunt and
put out their hands. This young man was telling me what he wanted and
assertively, how he wanted to get it.
I asked a nearby stranger from PNG his advice. And this is where the
entire exchange became so, out-of-the-ordinary that I considered it blog
worthy.
The stranger smiled big at me, and friendly. This was our conversation:
Me: "Hi, sorry to bother you, do you know this man's name?" (indicating
the young man)
He turned to the young man and said "What is your name?" The young man
replied with his name.
Me: "he has just asked me to buy him some meat. This isn't normal PNG
behaviour (pasin), what do you think I should do?'
Him: "Has he asked you to buy something too expensive? Meat is costly,
maybe you don't have the money?"
At that point I was very impressed. This man didn't assume I was rich
because I was white, and at the same time, he was using words in such a
way that I could make that my 'excuse' instead of saying 'no'. He was
coaching me. He was giving me an out. At the same time he wasn't
shaming me. This man, this stranger was impressing me.
Him: "He is crippled, he doesn't know PNG behaviour. He only knows what
he needs."
I went to the counter and bought the meat for the young man, hoping that
I didn't in some way, create a ripple of problems throughout the store
by breaking rules, or throughout the culture by declaring open season on
begging. I was thinking 'others will object because of the precedent.'
Etc.
And frankly, I would agree with those people. Normally.
And I say none of this to my own credit if anything it is to my own
shame, because it was only AFTERwards that I realized this was guidance
by the Holy Spirit.
I did it because:
-I had only 2 minutes before been thinking 'how can I help this kid.'
-I have always said I don't shy from direct confrontation, and this kid
was clearly telling me what he wanted from me.
-I sort of admired his self-preservation and assertiveness yet I know it
might scare and offend someone else, and so by doing it, I think maybe I
spared someone who might not react as well.
-I'm so rarely in the store, there is no way this will become a usual thing.
And later, I thought.. 'Hey God... I have no idea why that kid needed
meat. When I handed it to him, he didn't tear it open and ravish it.
It put it in his bag. Was he bringing it home to someone? He had coins
in his hand? Had he set out to buy food for someone only to realize he
didn't have enough? I don't know, but You do. And I think your Spirit
was guiding me to be there at that time to help him, and I'm ashamed
that I didn't realize it sooner, and I'm ashamed that I didn't decide
more quickly, but I'm thankful that you likely got me to the right end
anyway.'
It is such a small thing really. It was $2. So why on earth blog about it?
Well for two reasons:
1 - It was an unusual cultural experience for me.
and
2 - I firmly believe that if we cultivate our relationship with Christ,
we will be more sensitive to hearing what He is guiding us to do each
day. And that God is in charge, and able to compensate when we don't
exactly do what we were supposed to.
I'm hopeful all of that went in a way that glorifies God, and if it did
I'm thankful that He guided me into that place at that time. And I ask
for more such times as that.
The reason this is not boasting, is hopefully clear. It was 2 dollars.
That's it. It was nothing. Hardly worth mentioning. And yet it
stood out to me more than any other times when we've been more generous.
And I don't know why. Other than, I have this sense that God was in
the driver's seat during it.
And there is mystery, and there is encouragement and, it was odd.
So it made it on my blog in an attempt to give God some glory for it.
I had seen this young man around before, limping to and from wherever it is he goes. Drooling on himself along the way, and sort of moaning out 'hello' to people in his way.
I had always admired the fact that this guy has kept himself alive in this culture, in this climate. He just keeps waking up each day and getting dressed, and walking to wherever he goes.
I found myself wondering at that moment 'how I could help this guy?' I
I wondered if maybe offering him a ride to someplace might help as he
limps along very slowly. But I didn't know if he would be able to tell
me, as his language ability is so impaired.
Something distracted me and I lost the train of thought and moved on.
Not long after my lunch was over and I decided to head back to work,
when a fleeting thought caught my attention 'hey, go into the store, and
hey, go into the store the back way.'
It was an odd thought, and I kinda was breaking the rules to do it. But
I used the excuse of using the bathroom along the way to make it feel
less like breaking any rules.
I didn't get too far into the store before feeling a tug on my jacket.
It was this young man of whom I was speaking earlier. He moaned out to
me something unintelligible and then pointed to some meat in the fridge.
It was an 8 kina (2 dollars) pack of lunch meat. He looked at me and
got out 'You buy for me'.
Oddly at this moment I can't recall if it was Tok Pisin or English.
I instantly said 'Yes.' I saw the coins in his hand, and assumed he
wanted help getting to the register, carrying it, etc. So I said 'Do
you have the 8 kina?'
He shook his head and replied 'You pay!'. As he did so more drool
escaped his lips and his eyes wandered.
I know that begging in our store is not permitted as it could cause a
big problem. So again I was faced with 'If I do this, how many rules am
I breaking?'
I decided to ask for cultural assistance. You really don't want to
encourage begging because you don't want to encourage a culture of
depending on missionaries for income. But I didn't feel this was
exactly that situation. I mean we've had people beg us for money
before, but never meat. And never like this. Mostly they just grunt and
put out their hands. This young man was telling me what he wanted and
assertively, how he wanted to get it.
I asked a nearby stranger from PNG his advice. And this is where the
entire exchange became so, out-of-the-ordinary that I considered it blog
worthy.
The stranger smiled big at me, and friendly. This was our conversation:
Me: "Hi, sorry to bother you, do you know this man's name?" (indicating
the young man)
He turned to the young man and said "What is your name?" The young man
replied with his name.
Me: "he has just asked me to buy him some meat. This isn't normal PNG
behaviour (pasin), what do you think I should do?'
Him: "Has he asked you to buy something too expensive? Meat is costly,
maybe you don't have the money?"
At that point I was very impressed. This man didn't assume I was rich
because I was white, and at the same time, he was using words in such a
way that I could make that my 'excuse' instead of saying 'no'. He was
coaching me. He was giving me an out. At the same time he wasn't
shaming me. This man, this stranger was impressing me.
Him: "He is crippled, he doesn't know PNG behaviour. He only knows what
he needs."
I went to the counter and bought the meat for the young man, hoping that
I didn't in some way, create a ripple of problems throughout the store
by breaking rules, or throughout the culture by declaring open season on
begging. I was thinking 'others will object because of the precedent.'
Etc.
And frankly, I would agree with those people. Normally.
And I say none of this to my own credit if anything it is to my own
shame, because it was only AFTERwards that I realized this was guidance
by the Holy Spirit.
I did it because:
-I had only 2 minutes before been thinking 'how can I help this kid.'
-I have always said I don't shy from direct confrontation, and this kid
was clearly telling me what he wanted from me.
-I sort of admired his self-preservation and assertiveness yet I know it
might scare and offend someone else, and so by doing it, I think maybe I
spared someone who might not react as well.
-I'm so rarely in the store, there is no way this will become a usual thing.
And later, I thought.. 'Hey God... I have no idea why that kid needed
meat. When I handed it to him, he didn't tear it open and ravish it.
It put it in his bag. Was he bringing it home to someone? He had coins
in his hand? Had he set out to buy food for someone only to realize he
didn't have enough? I don't know, but You do. And I think your Spirit
was guiding me to be there at that time to help him, and I'm ashamed
that I didn't realize it sooner, and I'm ashamed that I didn't decide
more quickly, but I'm thankful that you likely got me to the right end
anyway.'
It is such a small thing really. It was $2. So why on earth blog about it?
Well for two reasons:
1 - It was an unusual cultural experience for me.
and
2 - I firmly believe that if we cultivate our relationship with Christ,
we will be more sensitive to hearing what He is guiding us to do each
day. And that God is in charge, and able to compensate when we don't
exactly do what we were supposed to.
I'm hopeful all of that went in a way that glorifies God, and if it did
I'm thankful that He guided me into that place at that time. And I ask
for more such times as that.
The reason this is not boasting, is hopefully clear. It was 2 dollars.
That's it. It was nothing. Hardly worth mentioning. And yet it
stood out to me more than any other times when we've been more generous.
And I don't know why. Other than, I have this sense that God was in
the driver's seat during it.
And there is mystery, and there is encouragement and, it was odd.
So it made it on my blog in an attempt to give God some glory for it.
3/06/2016
No explanation needed
Here is a testimonial shared at a recent dedication. I really don't need to offer any additional explanation:
(this is a translation, she was speaking in Kandawo)
" "We were starving and we didn't know it. Now this audibible satisfies our hunger and tastes sweet. Now I'm waiting for the Lord to come back to get me. You've come with the audibible, at this exact time in my life. It is perfect for me. I have worries and heavies; my husband left me to work the garden and feed and clothe our two grade school children. But the audibible has given me so much peace. We saw ourselves as wild animals, pigs and dogs that die and are lost. But when you came and introduced this machine to us, it enlightened our minds from being like wild animals. It has taken us out of the destructive road we were on, and we have entered into its (new) road. It has been a game changer for me. I feel that it has met my deepest longing. The audibible said that if I humbled myself before the Lord, He would lift me up. So now I give things to God and I am at peace with this because God will raise me up." The next morning through tears, she pleaded with me, "You have to understand how very much this has completely changed me and my situation! This has changed everything for me."
(this is a translation, she was speaking in Kandawo)
" "We were starving and we didn't know it. Now this audibible satisfies our hunger and tastes sweet. Now I'm waiting for the Lord to come back to get me. You've come with the audibible, at this exact time in my life. It is perfect for me. I have worries and heavies; my husband left me to work the garden and feed and clothe our two grade school children. But the audibible has given me so much peace. We saw ourselves as wild animals, pigs and dogs that die and are lost. But when you came and introduced this machine to us, it enlightened our minds from being like wild animals. It has taken us out of the destructive road we were on, and we have entered into its (new) road. It has been a game changer for me. I feel that it has met my deepest longing. The audibible said that if I humbled myself before the Lord, He would lift me up. So now I give things to God and I am at peace with this because God will raise me up." The next morning through tears, she pleaded with me, "You have to understand how very much this has completely changed me and my situation! This has changed everything for me."
3/01/2016
Timeline
When I was attending a Bible camp in high school, someone challenged us
to write a 'spiritual timeline'. Putting significant events in our
lives in order.
The visual of it had forever stayed with me.
Sometimes there were dips or valleys, other times there were peaks.
Most of the valleys were times when I wasn't as devoted to spending time
with God. (prayer, Bible reading, taking our relationship seriously).
Most of the peaks were times when I had been closer to God and He did
something awesome in my life.
One think I noticed along that timeline, is that God didn't change, but
I did.
I'm really not one for these common and cheesy christian phrases, like
"Trust in prayer, God is faithful!" but there is often truth in them (I
still don't like myself for saying them.)
A short while ago I watched the Kendrick brothers movie "The War Room".
If you are familiar with these films, they are usually well produced,
sometimes a little bit more smooth than edgy. (I am trying to avoid
saying they are cheesy. Well done, occasionally cheesy, but overall
some of the best 'christian' films ever made.)
This movie reminded me of that spiritual timeline. It reminded me that I
need to recommit myself to prayer. Life got a little busy, I wasn't
praying as earnestly as I had been accustomed to. And, not
surprisingly, life was getting a little overwhelming.
But after the prompting of the film, I got back into it again. Daily
spending time with God, on the weekends spending MORE very pointed
prayer time with God.
The end result is I started seeing immediate answer to prayer again and
started feeling more confident and happy.
Every valley, or dip on that timeline has been the same for me, the only
thing that ever pulls me out of one, is getting closer to my savior.
Every time I do, I think 'I'm such a fool for neglecting this
relationship, why did I let that happen?'
The enemy doesn't really need that much prompting to get us off track.
Life is busy, and it can very easily overwhelm us if we neglect the
delicate balance of being IN the world but not OF the world.
to write a 'spiritual timeline'. Putting significant events in our
lives in order.
The visual of it had forever stayed with me.
Sometimes there were dips or valleys, other times there were peaks.
Most of the valleys were times when I wasn't as devoted to spending time
with God. (prayer, Bible reading, taking our relationship seriously).
Most of the peaks were times when I had been closer to God and He did
something awesome in my life.
One think I noticed along that timeline, is that God didn't change, but
I did.
I'm really not one for these common and cheesy christian phrases, like
"Trust in prayer, God is faithful!" but there is often truth in them (I
still don't like myself for saying them.)
A short while ago I watched the Kendrick brothers movie "The War Room".
If you are familiar with these films, they are usually well produced,
sometimes a little bit more smooth than edgy. (I am trying to avoid
saying they are cheesy. Well done, occasionally cheesy, but overall
some of the best 'christian' films ever made.)
This movie reminded me of that spiritual timeline. It reminded me that I
need to recommit myself to prayer. Life got a little busy, I wasn't
praying as earnestly as I had been accustomed to. And, not
surprisingly, life was getting a little overwhelming.
But after the prompting of the film, I got back into it again. Daily
spending time with God, on the weekends spending MORE very pointed
prayer time with God.
The end result is I started seeing immediate answer to prayer again and
started feeling more confident and happy.
Every valley, or dip on that timeline has been the same for me, the only
thing that ever pulls me out of one, is getting closer to my savior.
Every time I do, I think 'I'm such a fool for neglecting this
relationship, why did I let that happen?'
The enemy doesn't really need that much prompting to get us off track.
Life is busy, and it can very easily overwhelm us if we neglect the
delicate balance of being IN the world but not OF the world.
2/10/2016
Road to Lae
2/09/2016
Flying in the Rain

A picture of a crocodile skull, with teeth and some hide in tact in Madang.
My wife and I were recently in Madang, having never flown there before. It was a good time, perfect weather. Everything went smoothly. We saw interesting things.
And then, there was the flight back.
It is a 30 minute flight, or a 6 hour drive.
This was the first time we had flown.
The two pilots in the small plane were very experienced at flying in country. They told us 'We have just heard there is a lot of rain at our destination (our home), and we may not be able to land.'
The pilots seemed very concentrated on looking for holes in the weather. We occasionally would bank left, or bank right in the little plane made specifically for jungle landings and take offs. It was bigger than a Cesna 206, but engineered with a short take off and landing distance needed. At one time we pulled up, sped up, then moved this way and that. It was actually all rather smooth, but we are experienced flying passengers in this type of weather, and so no one was really worried.
Some lightning was going on in the clouds around us, but we felt perfectly safe because we knew these pilots personally and had tremendous respect for their professionalism.
Soon we were over the landing strip, but couldn't see it. It looked like we may have to divert to a different place. The pilots circled around once... then it looked as if they saw a hole, and came in from an angle we've never come in before, and landed, a silky smooth landing. After landing, we heard one pilot say to the other 'if you hadn't found that hole, we would have had to divert."
We were very thankful we were able to get home to our kids, and that everything went so well. Those pilots were flying all day, loading unloading, etc. Working hard.
It is a pleasure to be supporting Bible Translation along side people of that caliber.
(why did I put up a pic of a croc? Well I didn't take a picture of rainy weather from the plane because I never enough thought to snap one... and then speaking of SNAPPING... I had this croc pic from madang! We found it in a craft hut (kauvinghaus aka - house of carvings) but did not buy it.
1/18/2016
Kope Jesus Film
One of the perks of my job is being involved in the making of videos like this one. Audio and Video communication is very important in this culture. But we can't make films without translated Scripture. The process of making a Jesus Film requires a team of people who can translate, script, even teach reading and literacy to the people doing the acting. It requires recordists, editors, etc. A team of technically diverse people come together to make a lasting representation that truly speaks to people's hearts.
Watch this story. (My team just finished the video yesterday, the dedication happened in October, but the story has been in the making since only God knows when.)
1/16/2016
Family addition
A family had to leave their beloved Ginger behind and she has come to live with us. Instantly she is at home. This kind of quick adaptability is typical of dogs owned by families who travel often. They don't take long to warm up to people and this one warmed up instantly.
1/11/2016
VBS
It is school break and we have been encouraging the kids to serve others with their time off from school. Yes, relax, enjoy their equivalent of 'summer break' but also, instead of sitting around, find a way to be of help to others.
They chose to get involved with our version of 'Vacation Bible School' which takes place in 'tok pisin' and while modeled after what we know as VBS in the U.S. has been customized for this country's culture.
from my wife:
Here's a glimpse of day 1 of VBS. As you can see it was a full house. Please keep praying for health and stamina for all of the leaders and that God's word would touch the hearts of all of these kids. Here's an interesting fact: typically our largest groups of kids fall in the preschool to grade 1 age group, followed by kids in grades 2-4. We usually get a smaller amount of kids in grades 5 and up. However, on day 1 it seems we had almost 100 girls in grades 5 and up. This is NOT typical. I wonder what God's got planned?
12/13/2015
My Cousin Donna
She's in heaven.
We found out this weekend.
We won't be able to return to the U.S. for a memorial service. I was
having a conversation today with a friend and told him this news and he
asked 'Was she a believer?' Boy was she. We then discussed how asking
that question might upset some people.
He once surprised a pastor at his father's funeral by saying at the end
'Thanks for sharing, I look forward to meeting your dad.'
If you are kingdom minded, a Eulogy is little more than an introduction.
Often we get mired down in our earthly woes, but Christ reminds us to
keep looking upward and thinking about what happens AFTER our time on
earth is done. It affects how we live here, the decisions we make, etc.
So, with that in mind, and if you are assured of your salvation, let me
introduce my cousin Donna to you.
She's a very kind person. Her heart was always thinking about other
people, how they are doing, what she can do to make them comfortable.
She lit up every room she entered. She recruited me more than once to
play Santa for the youngest members of our family at the time. She
embodied the Christmas spirit, 365 days a year. She loved on my kids,
and they loved her back. Even when she wasn't able to get around much
near the end, she made a point to hand pick gifts for my kids and send
them over here in PNG. Such that, when we broke the news to the kids
yesterday, we had a gift from Donna and Jack to give to them.
She has a rare gift for uplifting people around her.
We'll miss her of course, but only for a short while. The time we'll be
without her will seem like nothing once we've entered eternity.
We found out this weekend.
We won't be able to return to the U.S. for a memorial service. I was
having a conversation today with a friend and told him this news and he
asked 'Was she a believer?' Boy was she. We then discussed how asking
that question might upset some people.
He once surprised a pastor at his father's funeral by saying at the end
'Thanks for sharing, I look forward to meeting your dad.'
If you are kingdom minded, a Eulogy is little more than an introduction.
Often we get mired down in our earthly woes, but Christ reminds us to
keep looking upward and thinking about what happens AFTER our time on
earth is done. It affects how we live here, the decisions we make, etc.
So, with that in mind, and if you are assured of your salvation, let me
introduce my cousin Donna to you.
She's a very kind person. Her heart was always thinking about other
people, how they are doing, what she can do to make them comfortable.
She lit up every room she entered. She recruited me more than once to
play Santa for the youngest members of our family at the time. She
embodied the Christmas spirit, 365 days a year. She loved on my kids,
and they loved her back. Even when she wasn't able to get around much
near the end, she made a point to hand pick gifts for my kids and send
them over here in PNG. Such that, when we broke the news to the kids
yesterday, we had a gift from Donna and Jack to give to them.
She has a rare gift for uplifting people around her.
We'll miss her of course, but only for a short while. The time we'll be
without her will seem like nothing once we've entered eternity.
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